I saw only you..

I saw you with me just now,
But couldn't find you here...
I saw you in my thoughts,
And felt you are with me...
I saw you with me as 'we' in my every thought and dream...
I saw the illusion of yours at the very first thought of yours, smiling at me...
I saw that I need you badly for you are my necessity...
I saw that every tear of mine which were filling my eyes, only with you...
I saw that every pretty smile I put on, only with you..
I saw the world as nothing, without you..
I saw that you are my everything, every inch of me...
I saw that I am incomplete without you..
I saw that I can live without you but I don't want to...
I saw you wiping my tears at my the hardest times...
I saw you smiling at me when I am happy with you..
I saw your every form of immense love for me..
I saw your every form of care behind your anger..
I saw every day, every hour, every minute and every second spending with you with ecstasy...
I saw the immense joy with the first embrace you gave me...
I saw the secured feeling within me in your arms..
I saw the intense euphoria within me when you kissed me..
I saw the intimacy between us in our every warm silence..
I saw the intensity of our love in every gaze of ours..
I saw the pain of losing you in my thoughts..
I saw that I can't even imagine myself in the thoughts filled with pain of losing you..
I saw you always are my guide and critic, adviser and guardian..
I saw that I miss you whenever I feel your absence..
I saw that I love you deeply from the core of my heart..
And what I finally saw is I am nothing but you.. Its only you... From the deepest core of my heart its only you.. Its only you...

Smile of Realization..

She sat there crying and crying..
Her eyes wet with tears.. As every tear was about to fall her sorrow became intense..
There was no one she can share her grief.. No one to hug her and say everything would be al right..
She understood that everything has ended..
She stood before the mirror..She saw her eyes fully wet with tears.. Her cheeks cleaned with tears..
Her nose red and her blonde hair like a feather flying in the air.. She wasn't able to accept the truth that she is alone.. She is completely drained off..
She is a typical girl.. Very outspoken, very sweet, very industrious, very mature, and very beautiful both from inside and outside too.. She has her own dreams, her own way of making life decisions,her own way of handling things and people.. But being a girl she couldn't express anytime.. Not even before and not even now..
Domination was more whenever she tried to express her own feelings.. Her interests, her freedom, and her enjoyment were all taken away from her as she was a GIRL..She cried unseen and unheard many nights.. "What is my life? Why am I like this? And why the hell am I alone?"
Smiling in happiness is something unknown to her.. unknown than a stranger..Her hope and courage were alive though she couldn't smile any time from her heart.. She always wished to be her true original her, but now that became a dream again.. People whom she wanted with her were always far away from her.. That distance if sometimes were miles, then sometimes it were worlds.. She never told this to anyone.. Only thing she did was being happy and normal though she wasn't..She always wished for the happiness of people around her, especially her loved ones.. She was never bothered by many people.. Many would hate her but started loving her later by viewing her originality..
She was never given a place that she truly deserves.. Every moment she was just treated like a girl rather than a human.. She was forced to do many things which she never liked to.. The absence of free dom in her life and many mentally disturbing incidents made her life miserable  and in a short period of time she lost balance her in life.. Mentally and physically.. And by the time she regained back her balance she lost what she wanted to gain..
Many less incidents made her smile from her heart.. And over that she expected something but something else was in store for her.. She was in a literal prison and all her emotions were chained inside..
She was remembering all these standing before the mirror but tried to gain the little hope left with her.. that hope which was always with her.. And made her smile seeing herself again.. A smile of hope that someday and at sometime everything will change.. But actually that is a smile of realization that things which already happened would never change but we should move on.. And realizing that it turned as a Smile of realization..

Silence..

I walk through the lane..
Could see nothing but the roads connecting...
I see birds relaxing in their nests and animals leaving to their home..
I see people getting back to their home for resting..
I can hear the tides receding back, off shore and could actually make out the rivers joining the body of water through my ears...
I can feel the wind which is blown up gently on to me..
I can see the sky filled with the darkest of the clouds and could actually hear them moving..
I can see the brightest of the stars in the same sky, periodically fading away..
I can see the trees moving bland and the rustle of leaves..
But still what I could actually feel was the Silence...
The Silence is what I could see,hear and feel....